At least im sure that this site doesnt get checked out anymore. -_-;;


I just dont know what to think anymore... to much had happened, and so a lot of it was joey. Im not saying really that he's a bad guy but... i just dont know what to expect anymore. In litteral terms, i guess the answer would be "nothing." But last nighth e said he was considering getting me a 360. I doubt he'll keep his word... Fact, i half think he brought it up just to make me feel even lower then i normally do.

I wouldn't put it past him, really... but other things he said rings hough my head still. Like how he said how he wanted to make it up to me for how he was acting.

But i just dont know anymore...

and i was in fact seriously thinking on overdosing last night after I hung up with joey, i admit it. I had even figured how many MG's that the bottle still had in it just to make sure it would work. But really, there was only one reason why I had changed my mind, and that was the fact that if i did go,t hen i'd know that all my stuff would get pitched or burned insted of my family giving it to the people i want it to have.

I got nothing to live for anymore. Im empty, and unloved... the one man i loved the most in my life had turned on me, and i have no chance on gaining back my place...

They say that its better to love and to loose then to not love at all.... so why don't THEY try it.