loveI remember far back in the day that i said "if you took intrest ins omeone, just tell me... and i'll back away."
I seriously regret those words....
Joey: Remember in the beginning?
Natalie: which one?
Joey: I dunno anymore
Natalie: im already lost but continue
Natalie: *figures she'd catch on*
Natalie: what is it?
Joey: You said you'd peacefully back away if I ever got caught by somebody, right?
Natalie: if you took heavy intrest and actuilly tell me without going behind my back like im a fucking idiot like everyone else did, yes...
Joey: Alright
Joey: Then I shall give you the heads up when it does happen
Natalie: i told that to the other's but they got greedy and abused it.. so they face my wrath for eturnity thinking that im a fucking idiot
Natalie: which i also wouldve backed out on easily if they just told me insted of doing that ¬_¬
Joey: o.o
Joey: Okay then
Natalie: so thats your forewarning... i apply the same rules with everyone... not that difficult...
Joey: I know, I know
Natalie: *pokes your tummy*
Natalie: been getting eyed up or something?
Joey: Once or twice, yeah
Joey: One even invited me to a party
Joey: o.o
Natalie: so long as ya tell me, im fine with it
I'v done all i could for him... i'v forfilled all of his wishes... i'v granted more then i shouldve... and even when he was pissed and asked me to 'fucking die already', i tried... just for him... if i wasnt here to post that i shot myself in the chest three times just to forfill his wish... but it had failed becouse i heard he wished for me to get better... yet he doesnt know---he doesnt know... how much i cared for him... how much he made me happy... how much i'd still love to hear his voice... how much i still like to read his words...
but then... it comes to this...
I regret those words... its been almost half a year... and i follow by rules...
Once he leaves... and follows someone else... i can't take him back... no matter what...
Because if i wasnt good enough to please himt he first time... whats the point in starting again if i would get the same dissapointments...?
Only one song runs in my mind now... becouse once he leaves me for someone else... Joel Ramond Martinez-Medrano... is dead to me... v_v... he'll be nothing more then a ghost if he talks to me...
